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Learning the Art of Letting Go – Barbara Hill



MAY 09, 2017 IN WELL BEING, GENERAL COUNSELING


At one time or another, I'm sure we've all found ourselves as the dreaded backseat driver--wincing with each turn, while offering unsolicited advice about the speed limit or the direction that the driver was taking you.


Or how about that team work project you were assigned to? You weren't so confident in your co-workers abilities, so you decided to just do the whole thing yourself.

You tell yourself: "I've seen them in work meetings dozing off, or scrolling mindlessly through their instagram feed, so I'm not about to get passed up on that promotion just because I'm forced to work on team loser."


Or maybe you're the mom of four, and your husband never makes the lunches right, so instead of accepting his much needed help, you relieve him of his lunch duties and do it all yourself.


The list could go on and on to describe different scenarios, all with one common and prevailing theme threaded throughout each.


I'll give you a hint...it's something that we desperately try to hang onto, yet it always feel like it's painfully slipping through our fingers.

You might have guessed it--CONTROL.


If you're like me, you just winced a little inside and perhaps felt a bit defensive as you read that word.


As a future mental health counselor, I speak with a lot of clients who have had many difficult and often traumatic experiences that have left them feeling helpless, hopeless, and most painfully of all--feeling as though they no longer have control over their own lives.

The events we experience from childhood to adulthood have a way of sending us one loud and powerful message: life is unpredictable. This unpredictability causes us to feel unstable and insecure, which, in turn, sends us on a search for a more firm footing for our fragile hearts, emotions, and minds. Unfortunately, this "firm footing" often begins to take on the form of control; controlling others, controlling our interactions, and controlling our environments, all to ensure that we are protected and safe.


In the field of counseling, there are two terms that we familiarize ourselves with to help guide our clients into understanding more clearly this idea of control, as well as how it affects us and our relationships.


We can break down the idea of control from two vantage points:


Internal Locus (Location) Of Control:

Individuals believe events in their life are controlled primarily from their own actions (i.e. internally). For example, when receiving exam results, people with an internal locus of control tend to praise or blame themselves and their abilities.


External Locus (Location) Of Control:

Individuals believe events in their life are controlled by outside factors that they cannot influence; that chance or fate controls their lives. For example, this individual would tend to praise or blame external factors such as the teacher or the exam.[2]

So, how does this translate practically into our daily lives and interactions?

Well, we find that we are either determining and deriving our sense of control from an internal or external place. As is clearly seen in the examples above, both an internal and external locus of control can have it's pitfalls.

With an internal locus of control, I take ownership over my life and what takes place, but sometimes to a fault because I can become crippled by guilt, anxiety, or shame (just to name a few). Whereas with an external locus of control, although we may not "internalize" the events or experiences we have, we may actually avoid taking responsibility for anything that happens, leading to a careless and calloused heart.

So, where does that leave us? How do we take back control over...well, control?

If you've ever attended an AA meeting, you may have heard them recite the well-known serenity prayer. This is how it goes:


"God, Grant Me The Serenity To Accept The Things I Can Not Change, Courage To Change The Things I Can, And Wisdom To Know The Difference."


Serenity to accept the things that happen which are outside of my control, and the courage to face my fears and change the things I can. THIS is where we not only find our release, but also our stride.


Release reminds us we can finally take a deep breath and let go of the things that we were never in control of in the first place, which allows us to give ourselves grace and forgiveness for the mistakes we have made.


Stride means we are taking personal ownership over our lives while we regain a sense of direction, confidence, and empowerment concerning the things that are within our control--namely our hearts, minds, emotions, and attitudes.


We might as well say, "Hi, my name is (fill in the blank) and I am a control addict." Don't worry, every person reading this would be joining you.


By admitting our need for control, whether it's in the small or the big things (or both), we can echo the mantra of our fellow AA friends and pray for the "serenity to accept the things we cannot change, the courage to change the things we can, and the wisdom to know the difference."


As we learn where are responsibilities begin and where they end, we will find ourselves in uncharted territory. We'll find ourselves stepping into freedom. The freedom to love and receive love, to live generously with our words and our actions, to give grace and forgive, not only others, but ourselves.


When we relinquish our grasp for control, we actually discover the stability and security we've been searching for all along. We realize that firm footing is surprisingly found underneath the feet of faith, and as John Greenleaf Whittier so famously said,


“Nothing Before, Nothing Behind;

The Steps Of Faith

Fall On The Seeming Void, And Find

The Rock Beneath.”


Bio: Barbara Hill grew up on the East Coast, and relocated to California in 2014 to work with The A21 Campaign, a global anti human trafficking organization, as well as to finish her masters in Biblical counseling. She graduated in 2016, and recently moved to Chicago to pursue her professional licensure in counseling, and will graduate in 2017 from Moody's Clinical Mental Health program. In addition to her passions for counseling, she loves coffee (probably way too much), leading worship at church, and spending quality time with friends (probably over coffee).

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